I have allowed myself to be consumed by my current situation. I hate feeling this way. I hate the fear within me. I feel like I’m losing. I have to snap myself out of it and realize that the proper steps won’t make a change overnight. I know why I’m consumed with hair loss, hair is my work. Hair matters to all of us.

It is a confusing feeling when you don’t feel sick but your insides aren’t working as they should it shows on the outside.

I’m taking steps to improve change my already healthy eating habits. I’m trying to follow an anti-inflammatory diet, but it’s not easy when you love to cook, when you cook for another in the house (who could benefit from the same diet too), and when you’re angry that something came in and took over. I can find a hundred excuses, but that won’t help me get better. State of mind and determination and education will.

I thought I needed ALL the supplements that help autoimmune dis-ease. I have been searching and studying and causing myself sleepless nights. I stopped though. Sometimes less is more. Bloodwork to find what vitamins and minerals I am low on, is the answer. Eating foods that have abundant vitamins, minerals, proteins and good fats is what I need to do; it’s what we ALL need to do.

I keep thinking, “if I can just flush out my entire system, I will be better.” Maybe true, maybe not, but it can’t hurt to try.

Healthy starts on the outside, (food, air, sunshine, earth, water) and on the inside, (food, air, water, mindfulness, peace, sleep). I find myself serving others, helping others find inner peace, outer comfort, and encouraging food habits, but I don’t always make the time to practice the same.

Hashimoto’s and Alopecia Areata. I hate saying those words. I tried to ignore the words, especially the AA alopecia. I am worried that I will lose all of my hair. I’m worried that it is it’s own autoimmune disease and not connected to Hashimoto’s; which hair loss is also a symptom. Time will tell. While I move forward, I will snap out of my fear and anger and make necessary changes.

Habitually, I shame myself for being absorbed with my own conditions, but I’m allowing myself to be absorbed and to care about my health, both physical and emotional – for now.

If my experience teaches me to help others with similar situations or diagnosis, then I’m here for them. I’m here for you; we can learn and move forward together.

Just another day in the life. Thankful for another day, despite my stuff.