I hate when I have large gaps between posts. I hate that I think I have nothing to say. The fact is, I do have good ideas, helpful tips and deep thoughts. I sometimes allow grief laden thoughts to consume me. In my last post, I made the decision to slow the hair loss posts and move onto other things. But the hair loss reality brought me way down.

I know that I’m not the only one with Alopecia, but I’m the only one in my large circle. I feel very alone. By February I lost 85% of my hair. In January, started Litfulo, a JAK for Alopecia. While on it, hair kept falling out. This is normal but it was very depressing. I also lost my eyebrows and lashes. I turned inward and found things to distract my mind. I’m pretty sure that’s when baking sourdough everything came into my life. It is something I can control as well as keep my mind on happier things. I’m trying not to hate myself and trying to stop hiding.

Mid-April I began seeing a little hair-fuzz! Now, Mid-May, I have more fuzz, albeit pure white, but it’s hair, I’ll take it! I still wear hats in public until it fills in more. Those who have seen my new growth love the color. It might change back to my normal medium brown or not, I don’t worry about that.

This is me in a nutshell right now. Mentally, I’m feeling better and working on improving. Life sure has a way of throwing curve balls when we least expect it. It’s how we react that will get us through it. For me, it’s going to and trusting God in every aspect of my life.

Upon her head
Hair grows like frost
Glistening in the sunshine
and gleaming like new snow. – DMS